cancer // halfway

cancer // halfway

This weekend was probably one of the hardest so far. I spent 3 beautiful sunny days on the couch and in the bathroom, super sick from side effects. I had my pity party. I felt sorry for myself. I got angry. There were tears. I just wanted it to be over. I wanted to tell my doctor, “I don’t care, I need a break”. Now that my medication is working and I’m starting to feel better… yes, I still want… Read more »

cancer // the prayer gathering

I’ve been procrastinating the blog post about our prayer gathering last Sunday. I just don’t have the words it deserves to describe the beauty of it, the presence of God, the incredible generosity and outpouring of support. It left me speechless. Over 100 dear family, friends and sweet clients came out to our house on Superbowl Sunday. Some sweet faces that I hadn’t seen in so many years, several who battled cancer as well, and some who I didn’t even… Read more »

cancer // first day of chemo

2.9.16 Writing this at 2am. Eva woke up to eat. Sleeping-all-night was a blissful short lived gift that I hope will return soon! Putting her back to sleep is so sweet and quick, though, and sweet Josh takes over the bottle portion, so it’s not that bad at all. However, I took some medicine for nausea and now I can’t go back to sleep. I keep thinking about my first chemo day, and this week, the stuff that runs through your mind… Read more »

cancer // incredible news

2.3.16 Time for the follow-up appointment, anxious to hear if they found any cancerous cells in the organs they removed from surgery. The nurse called to say they wanted me to meet with the radiologist while I was there, and that they had the results from the tests, but she wouldn’t tell me if it was good or bad. They wanted me to take a hearing test as well, as sometimes the cisplatin can damage your hearing. (Awesome). Mom, Dad and… Read more »

cancer // life is terminal

2.1.16 Today was so restful. My sweet sister and mom decluttered our tiny house. I was getting overwhelmed looking at all the STUFF exploding from behind every door while being trapped on the couch. Confession: In the back of my mind today, I started wondering if Eva really remembered me (I know that’s silly and I blame the missing hormones and the devil trying to steal my joy) but the thought was still there. So many other sweet people have been taking… Read more »